Life as it is now….
02/06/07 - 2329hrs..
obviously i can’t sleep when i am still typing at this hrs now…i was walking by plaza singapura and ikea today with my family to collect some items that we were given when we made our purchases at harvey Norman.. It was kinda tiring though… My nephew was not really used to going out since he came into this world…This was probably his first outing.. hehe.. He’s now right abt 2 and half months and he weights like 7kg i think.. hehe… Lots of ppl say that he’s a big baby.. haha.. but anyway, it’s real cute to have him around to play with at times when im not busy..
But the bulk of the event was when something struck me abt how life has been and the trails of decision that has bring me to where i am today.. weird though to be thinking of this while i was window shopping… For example to name a few, like my studies right now, my passion, career, lifelong dream and of course some mushy mushy love life.. hahah!!!!! ok ok, that is forbidden.. wahaha…
well, i guess my drive to do good in my studies comes from the fact that i would wanna do it for my parents… I have to say its a stepping stone when it comes to having a good degree and all… But it will definitely put me in a position like most guys in singapore so to speak… study till like 25, then work here and there… just to realise that by 27 or 28.. will be getting married… It’s like a cycle.. I’m sure some would want to pursue their dreams and whatever they have in mind… But i guez it is all up to individual.. It makes me feel that we have been hindered by the possibilities of pursuing passions and dreams in life… by wat, hmmm… its a qns mark to me…
When it comes to my lifelong dream, to be in high speed and adrenaline rush… i have never thought for it to be impossible.. Only the possibility of sacrificing time, money and more money… well, everything comes with a price… Likewise for my career and not too long ago discovery of my passion to build up an empire… hmmm… i feel so threaten by that word itself… it’s enormous i feel… and… whether i get it…. it’s something that i can’t possibly answer too..
Many things in life, comes with sacrifices… I must say that for the sake of happiness, there are a couple of major decisions that i had to take it in my stride even though it was as bitter to swallow… I can’t say that it was worth it… But it was worth it to see these ppl happy everyday… Everytime i remember abt these few occasion, i would just say that, "for the good of mankind".. :).. sounds like some philosopher and all.. haha!!!…
But welll, i’m fortunate enough to be where i am today.. My studies, abilities, knowledge and some others.. Well, i would always feel that, things could be better.. hehe… its only how and when i would realise that i am truly happy for things to come… CUz i must say its been a while for everything.. hehehehe…
