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25th september 2006 - 2209hrs

Seems that the whole of today… I’ve been having this edgy feeling… Till the moment that i was siting down for a cup of Himalayan Tea latte at McCafe… It feels upon me whenever i’m worried, have lots of things on my mind, and when i’m remeniscing over the past… Racing heartbeat… What it means to me, i have not really thought over it yet…

There has been many time where i would be thinking, have i made the right decision to do what i did??  It feels that it would be so difficult for such things to take place… But i know that one day, i have to let it pass… I don’t have the forsight for such things… I’m standing here, in no man’s land to wonder all the time… It feels so hard to leave when the intentions is to stay… But with matters of the heart, i have yet to understand… I only know that it is for the better.. The better of moving on "and not to look back on the past"…

I hope that it would not bring any awkward feelings when our path cross again… I hate to say goodbye… But a new phase of journey will serve us for the better…

The phase whereby we will smile on our present days and take every step of it with a new challenge… Smile and chat heartily with everytime when we are to sit over a cup of coffee… It would be a wonderful beginning again… I pray everyday that everything will go smoothly and enjoy each and every moment of our day… And your day…

i chance upon a phrase for a wonderful start of our days to come…

"Don’t ever frown,Cause you will never know who is falling in love with your smile."

Well, that’s about all i guez… Probably now i would smile for the 30th september 2006 quiz coming up… All the best and good luck…

18/09/06 - 2059hrs

I had my mind busy for the past week at least… Had three quizzes in a row.. last thurs, fri and today… I’m glad it went ok though… the qns are relatively straight forward for the topics tested… well, concurrently… should receive the results on thurs and fri respectively… No doubt it has been two years that i last had test and quizzes to do.. with the earlier ones giving me some test drive i so call it.. Get the hang of being put to sit there for an hr or two preparing in the coming NOV exams…

Only that i hope that things could be better… i dont know how to put it… maybe bcos i’m not sure where i really went awkwardly erratic..  why must it happen now?? knowing that things grew to be happy… i have only wished for that person to be happy always… Not for things to be like this… probably wasn’t listening for some impt things that was said… only to have after get to knock some sense into myself, i should have understand better…

it’s like now pondering upon it day by day… Things will be different soon… in a month at least.. "seperti Hajat yang tak kesampaian, untuk memberitahu tentang apa yang aku mahu katakan bila ketemu, seperti… kata tahniah dan ucapan ku.."

ermm… i guez there’s reasons for this… yet to find out why.. maybe.. maybe i will….