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29/07/2006 - 1629hrs

The look of the 5 big red gantry gates became less significant as i left…. The rustic look of 1970s when it was first gave birth still stands for the operations of saving lives…. That last walk throughout reminds me of everything that hold a service of time i had spent.. Quiet and tranquil was how it was… All the engines were parked waiting for the moment where everyone would just jump out and leave the rugged tiled bay…  Watchroom, Paramedic office and the long hallway that leads to OC, RC and our office…Everything is left behind… The simple Hello and hi in the morning from the different faces of the personnel everyday..

The moment of quiet and steady lifestyle will soon be replaced with the bustling lifestyle over in the secluded west again… To be surrounded with 4 walls that echoes the voice and accent of professors and lecturers from different ethnic cultures and background. Shaken? maybe… to get back to the reality of getting the mechanism of my brain in use again… but, i told myself to pick up the pieces as i move from time to time to fit the puzzle that is missing… Everything seems to be instantaneous…

I’m eager to know wats behind the closed doors that i’ll be going through for the next three years… The positive aura envelopes my mind to give everything a new and fresh start… Leave the past and move on… puzzled by that consistent thoughts which has a different impact when it comes to affections that has never changed…

maybe, maybe the questions to all the puzzles in my mind will be answered along the journey… a week of short rest to switch from working and getting back to the books seems too short of a time… but… it has been set… i would just move and see forward what the world has to offer and to strive for… As for now, that simple goodbye and farewell to a place that i have once set foot on… Goodbye…

16/07/06 - 2306hrs

The setting of big house, having a porch, driveway and the privacy to say… Event that was set at Aloha Changi bungalow. The feeling was neutral as i reach the driveway, quiet, dark and the air so still… The feature was set in the 1950s with colonial houses that were once homes to british officers..Ferry Point Chalet 2 was the name given… I bet it could accomodate more than 30 to 40 ppl in that house… In me, "what big bungalows they used to stay in". The outlook of the place was eerie intially.. Rigid designs of the houses, mellow interior settings and colour. My sister, brother in law, uncle and aunt were there first including two of sisters best friends..

It was a slow start as i reach aloha changi… The living room, had 8 single sofas that was placed entirely on its own… Coffee and side tables complete it… I had the impression of my classes when i saw that area… It was as big as a single classroom… The dining hall, the rooms and even the entertainment hall had me gasping for luxury… 4 rooms of the same kind with complete furniture for use.. I could never ask for more in staying there even for 2 nights… It was simple yet it gave me the homely feeling which i settled down quickly to appreciate every aspect of it.. The time flew by without me noticing it.. I went around to see how majestic it could be when we owns it… It was 2100hrs when i glance at my watch where my parents called everybody for a light supper out at changi village… I felt the peace of "kampung" houses before going out… Only to think that i’m still in singapore… :)..

We settled in for a show that endy and my sis rented after the supper… A show to relax and laugh out to… The show reminded me of something when i watch it at the theater… "Meet the fockers"… It wasn’t the plot of the show that caught my attention… I was reliving the time i watch it at the movie.. What could be better than to watch it with someone then… It came to an end as soon i had myself yawning… My brain was telling me to rest through for an enjoyable time tmrw.. I clean up and went to bed…

It couldn’t be better than be up by 8am… I don’y think i would be up if i was at home… Breakfast, a visit to Ntuc Fairprice to purchase items for the barbeque and everything was done.. But then after sending them to the bungalow… I had to go back home and settle some problems with the tail and head light of our car… The day went by till 6pm only to spend it at the mechanic.. I was lethargic waiting and have not eaten… The mood went awkwardly different by then…

Had a clean up and went down for the BBQ… Everyone was there… my brother in law family and our family members… We started on while waiting for the rest to come.. Jumari and sharon.. Endy’s brother in law and elder sis..Then came his closest cousin, nadia and her husband..man,  i can’t remember his name… haha… Busu and family with us… We laugh and mingle together with them over a plate of Barbequed chicken wing and hotdogs… It was all good… I couldn’t eat much and wasn’t with much appetite…

We waited for the big event.. Cake cutting… It was my sis’s birthday that is coming soon!! and whoever’s birthday that was in july.. haha.. I believe he organise this especially for my sis.. hmmm.. that was very lovely.. Simple was the word… The cake, pictures and lots of talking.. haha…

Then after all, we went down to the jetty for fishing.. It has been a while since i went fishing and caught one.. Well, it was there just for the leisure and get away mode… We had conversation and capture the night lights from across the sea… The lights that came from pulau ubin… We had a couple of snacks with us and kept us awake till the hrs of the night… I felt exhausted and needed that good night sleep by 2am… My dad and busu cleared up and we all went up.. CAme the hot shower.. and yeah.. i went into dreamland…

Everyone was awake when i got up.. haha.. as always… We had some food, drinks to supply us that energy for another short hrs before we reach home.. We had pictures taken and cleared up while then waiting for checking out…

We then went in the car with all the tired faces trying to catch every resting time we can… I saw the last of the door took a close.. and we left…

13/07/06 - 2307hrs

Can the journey home be any simpler? The actions of people boarding at the entry.. While some leave by the exit doors.. It came to my attention of how many people i cross path with just on that single trip home… Babies crying, the looks of shagged man and woman rushing to have that seat for the comfort of travelling and Young adults returning home after an hour or two of lecture… It may seem to be just a journey or routine for some taking that same route.. While some could be the first experience of that bus journey to a totally new destination… "It’s a pleasure how you see the busy day has come to a halt…The sights of people getting lesser and lesser by the hour through the night… Even the birds and bees recides in the comfort of their homes… Just for the purpose of fulfilling the duties of tmrw, some rest and snuggle up to the resting arms of their bed…"

Some would appreciate the surrounding that catch their eyes along the way… It did for me everytime… The lights that came from the Al-Ameen restaurant capture my attention of that undesired night.. Sunday, 2230hrs… The flashback of the road, the carpark, my dad, my mum, the Toyota and our car… How could it ever happen? Was it my fault? Was it his? The black coat that set the theme of his car make me wonder, was i blinded by the glimmering colour? The re-enactment of the event came flowing through my tired mind…………….

" All i heard was Wowowowowowo!!! The whisker movement that i’ve made was followed by a minute thump at the back of the car… I turn over and knew that it happen… It was like a time freeze for that 30secs.. Before i could react next.. I said… Move faizal, move faizal… Telling myself that something needs to be done… I reach over to have the doors open and reluctantly lifted my heavy legs out of the car.. We had a short conversation just to realise he provoke the ego of men… I kept my cool and saw a long stretch of lights beeming behind his celica.. I made the move to move my car away from the road by the side… His too… I shifted to neutral and pulled up the hand brake…. I felt like hundreds of paired eyes were arrowed towards me just that the windows of the car separated me from their piercing questions… Even the waiter holding onto the teh tarik was freezed in time… I tried to handle the situation as calmly as possible…

We talked for no more than ten mins to where none of us wanted to give in… So, he says… "  i wanna make a claim against you" I progressively say ok… Initially i thought it was a sign of defeat to have that as solution.. But, to handle matters effectively was my main concern… No damage to his and to my car… So, i left it to jotting down his car license plate number and car model… I Scribble on some unused papers remembering that it would be the last time i wanna see such actions..

Then…. he left…. I’m left in anticipation to hear the verdict of the claim running though my mailbox…"

I was awakened from my flash back when a lady came seating beside me… An accidental nudge that she cause,then came a sorry from her… I just smiled and said, "it’s ok"…

The 15mins of journey was a total blank… Silence it was… 15mins of silence… Not thinking of anything at that point of time…Nothing… Just enjoying the sights around me… To realise that ,came my stop… I stretch over to press upon the stop button and slowly came down…

There it was, an ending to another bus journey… Tmrw will be another journey with new appreciation to the surrounding…. tmrw, will be another chapter of a memory…