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09/09/07 - 0049hrs

couldnt get to sleep yet thereby, here i am writing some stuff that i am was thinking abt on my way home just now… IT’s been a year or so since i have started sch and the period where quizzes get closer by the day… was chilling out with don and khai a while back and it felt like ages since i went to town… but in fact i do stroll down town once in awhile, but not in a chilled out fashion… maybe rushing to paragon and now still anticipating the arrival of the bracelet of my watch which i have been waiting for ages.. close to a month i think, i wonder if the shipment is here though…  nothing much has changed, but i have a target set for myself to reach in two yrs time… hmmm… its nerve recking i can say… i guez today, i needed a break from the studying and do it the old fashion way of going out and chill. kinda different feel… for the fact that this yr would be another semester of studying and will be going for attachment right up in jan 2008. where i’ll go, i am anticipating for the best though… for the experience and seting the right exposure for everything…

nevertheless, i am thankful for the fact that i have the frens and important ppl around me to give me the morale support. i can never deny that… it’s only a matter of doing the right thing.
sometimes i do feel that i might be too obsessive with getting something that i do not care with the situation around me… i do need to pull myself back sometimes and look at the bigger picture to ensure everyone out there feels comfortable… i do feel that i might be controlling sometimes… i would like to apologize if i have ever made them feel constricted or offended by my actions… i do not intentionally do it on purpose… i think through my journey back just now and i think that everyone should be treated as ethically and respecting their decision is one of it…
well, i do believe that i make mistakes sometimes and learning from it throughout my life will make me a better person in a whole… thank you to my frens and to you as you guys and gals have definitely made my time here a whole lot fun and meaningful… :)… take care and gd nite!!!! hee…

02/06/07 - 2329hrs..

obviously i can’t sleep when i am still typing at this hrs now…i was walking by plaza singapura and ikea today with my family to collect some items that we were given when we made our purchases at harvey Norman.. It was kinda tiring though… My nephew was not really used to going out since he came into this world…This was probably his first outing.. hehe..  He’s now right abt 2 and half months and he weights like 7kg i think.. hehe… Lots of ppl say that he’s a big baby.. haha.. but anyway, it’s real cute to have him around to play with at times when im not busy..

But the bulk of the event was when something struck me abt how life has been and the trails of decision that has bring me to where i am today.. weird though to be thinking of this while i was window shopping… For example to name a few, like my studies right now, my passion, career, lifelong dream and of course some mushy mushy love life.. hahah!!!!! ok ok, that is forbidden.. wahaha…

well, i guess my drive to do good in my studies comes from the fact that i would wanna do it for my parents… I have to say its a stepping stone when it comes to having a good degree and all… But it will definitely put me in a position like most guys in singapore so to speak… study till like 25, then work here and there… just to realise that by 27 or 28.. will be getting married… It’s like a cycle.. I’m sure some would want to pursue their dreams and whatever they have in mind… But i guez it is all up to individual.. It makes me feel that we have been hindered by the possibilities of pursuing passions and dreams in life… by wat, hmmm… its a qns mark to me…
When it comes to my lifelong dream, to be in high speed and adrenaline rush… i have never thought for it to be impossible.. Only the possibility of sacrificing time, money and more money… well, everything comes with a price… Likewise for my career and not too long ago discovery of my passion to build up an empire… hmmm… i feel so threaten by that word itself… it’s enormous i feel… and… whether i get it…. it’s something that i can’t possibly answer too..

Many things in life, comes with sacrifices… I must say that for the sake of happiness, there are a couple of major decisions that i had to take it in my stride even though it was as bitter to swallow… I can’t say that it was worth it… But it was worth it to see these ppl happy everyday… Everytime i remember abt these few occasion, i would just say that, "for the good of mankind".. :).. sounds like some philosopher and all.. haha!!!…

But welll, i’m fortunate enough to be where i am today.. My studies, abilities, knowledge and some others.. Well, i would always feel that, things could be better.. hehe… its only how and when i would realise that i am truly happy for things to come… CUz i must say its been a while for everything.. hehehehe…

10th May 2007 - 2015hrs

Let me see… Its been right about 4months plus since i have last update my blog… I must say been busy for the past months… After today, 10th may… i’m free from my school work and all… Yeap… It’s like the summer break… The break will last right abt 12 weeks… so i have till early aug before every stress and madness fly here and there again.. haha…
Exam was manageable cuz i had an early preparation.. but, it gets bit by bit demoralizing when the exam s over… The difficulty just keep getting on my nerve.. arghhh!!!!!!!!! even though it was stressful enough to knoW that i screw up my Structures 1.. I just wonder why.. Such careless mistakes, that was like poly work.. My gosh… The rest is difficult like crazy also… I guez everything was done, i did my best… had the supports from peers and friends and encouragement.. I’m thankful to all of them..
Then came our last work load… Which is Engineering Innovation & Design, EID… Had our showcase presentation today too.. We came and work together only proven not to be good enough.. We would have thought to at least make the top ten.. The group was kinda disheartened…
The process was fun though.. haha…With all the crap talk and all.. IT was relieving…Anyway, it would be a lesson learnt on the model work, presentation and our workmanship.. haha… maybe need to buck up on that…
Overall, it was okie… Maybe this time, i would have to learn to accept defeat for i hope to be blessed with other good stuff.. hehe…
We’ll be back with the Bridge competition!!!! I hope to make a kill on that competition next semester with our group..
but, yeah… i’m relieved that everything is over now… Waiting for the results will be another phase of the whole sch thingy.. haha…
well, that’s all for now… till again…

31/01/2007 - 1309hrs

Gosh!!! i feel like its a DejaVu… I passed my Class 2B today!!!!!!!!!! yeah!!!!! so it means that, there’s no need for me to go to the driving school for lessons anymore… it feels great.. Its my first attempt and it was nerve wrecking to wait for my turn to go for the test circuit and road… yap… The instructors called,.. Tag no 34, please go to your bike… man, like taking some kind of test that never existed in the world… haha… its been like 3 and half years since i had a practical test, so… i have to say that i nearly pee in my pants… haha!!!! gosh, of course its not for real… just a state of feeling i must say… hehe… After the circuit and road test, i must honestly say that i felt a 70percent chance that i will make it through… Just that i made some blunder along the way that made me have that 30percent though of failing…But anyway, its all over.. Hmmm, i think now…. wait for another year and take class 2A… Bigger bike then… hehe… Riding now,, hmmmm… can’t really say.. But i still love the thrill of driving… hehe…Well, kudos to myself.. Go and finish it up all the way to Class 2… yeah man….

15th Dec 2006 - 2124hrs

ITs been a while since i have watch 9pm chinese show… And for the past two, three days… I got stuck with the drama serial… Haha… Titled "A million Treasures"… Maybe i’m rather lost to how the whole storyline or plot is, but well… i caught the gist of it in all… I believe this is how it goes from wat i understand.. Its abt the hustle and bustle of Singapore lifestyle that goes around everyday trying to meet tehe living standards of those other than the norms… Being able to adapt the ever changing society and working attitude of an environment.. Plus the influence of families, friends and most of all, relationship… It is just so ironic how can the show be so dramatic as shown… Is it really the way it is??? hmmm… Maybe i am looking at a single perspective… Maybe as the title suggest, the whole world does revolves around money and power… Does extreme amount of money really turns the world and people around you to stick along… Gosh, its definitely important to have a substantial amount to have the dream live that anybody wants or must have…. Maybe the initial critic that i had was, "wat the heck is wrong with the serials these days, it has become more and more dramatic".. wahaha…. but anyway, i enjoy the show lots… Kudos to the directors and film makers of this series… I must say it reflects a lot on the world… well… interesting enough…

04th Dec 2006 - 2030hr

Finally!!! The exams are over and have a bit of a breather for now before sch starts again in abt five weeks… ’sigh of relief’…. Didn’t really get to get updated with alot of  things out there for the past one month at least.. Well, nows the chance for me to update a bit of my blog as well.. Was on the IT show past two days and boy was it worst than ever… Didn’t think abt the standing ordeal that evertime we have to go through.. But, it was all cool.. Just two days.. haha… Other than that, certainly have lots and lots of errands to run since i couldn’t spare the time to clean up and straighten things up for the past weeks… Gosh, long awaited break to say…

ANDDDD!!!!! i had my first lesson for today… Yes, my mind was in a standing order to think, man… i’m enrolling for a riding license… Had considered this for a a week at least and since i had the intentions to learn initially. .yeah, why not.. its knowledge anyway for me… Had the blessing from the whole family i suppose… haha… Not 100% though.. but, i’m thankful that they would give me the chance to enlist their Faith in me so much… THanks…Yeah, its dangerous and stuff.. I can feel it during the lesson earlier that it has a totally different security unlike when i was having driving lessons last time… BuT everyone of my family and frens who have given me support and words or wisdoms… I’ll definitely keep it in mind… To stay safe at all times.. "wink" hehe…..

But anyway, hope that this time round i can get my license on the first test again though… Pray hard and good luck to myself.. hehe…. Anyway, dudes!!! i can chill already  man!!! letS go!!! ViLLA BAlI!!!!! haha!!!!

23/10/2006 - 2315hrs

I guez that i was rather behind time to actually watch Lake House a couple of hours ago. I was supposed to have watch this movie about two months back while it was still showed then. But nevertheless, i still get to watch it now. But hey, honestly i like the show… There’s more of all those sci-fi action, thriller, comedy and war-based movies these days… But somehow this is a real classic. It’s a change of genre for a break from all other shows being shown… But it goes with a nice cheeky twist that doesn’t deprive me of the happy ending…

No doubt that a leap into a time dimension between two strangers that are separated by two years of their time couldnt have possibly happen… But in the show… It was like, you were to meet someone that doesnt belong to your time dimension right now. She is living 2 years apart from you and the only source of communication was through a little mail box. The settings and view of the lake house was just stunning. It was like a breath of fresh air… To live in a house away from the bustling lifestyle in the city…

How the whole idea of them developing acquaintances with each other till the moment they realise how much they have in common… The events that happen and all…

It seems that i’m rather short on words for this show… But i know… It was rather something that i needed to watch right now…. Weird as it seems, but have a go on this show… Recommended… It may seem impossible to accept it initially for the plot and storyline… But, have to appreciate it from a different angle… Simple fantasy made real i must say… ;)… Well, everything was made for a reason….

13/10/2006 - 2254hrs

Phewww… In like 4 weeks, i’ll be siting for the major exams for my core modules and two of the electives…. Hmmm…. kinda fast… It seems like 4 weeks is a long period of time, but it never is… Week by week just passes and never will i know that the time comes for exams… Gosh… Well, it is time for me to start preparing for it for the least… I have to say that i have never been more Gung Ho than i am now… haha… I guez i have set myself in mind to perform to my best… I guez that is why… But whatever it is, i’ll cross my fingers for that…

But i’m cool with it, for the time being… I have to keep in pace with the new chapters coming up till the end of the lecture and tutorial period… Then i’ll do just fine.. Hehe… After two years serving in Civil Defence, it would be the time again to go for exams… haha… such spine tingling event to happen again… Man, focus focus… Haha….

Everything have to go through… So, i’m more or less mentally prepared for it…. But in terms of revising, still have a long way to go… haha… but anyway, i’ll definitely get it done… WAHAHA..

Anyway, just a couple of hours back… i chance upon a talented singer profile… Gosh, her singing is breath taking… The pronounciation were simply perfect for her to sing in malay of a chinese background…. Man, i was amazed with her singing… It ain’t easy, it must be… But, i have to hand it to her for that…. I must say, it was phenomenal!!!

25th september 2006 - 2209hrs

Seems that the whole of today… I’ve been having this edgy feeling… Till the moment that i was siting down for a cup of Himalayan Tea latte at McCafe… It feels upon me whenever i’m worried, have lots of things on my mind, and when i’m remeniscing over the past… Racing heartbeat… What it means to me, i have not really thought over it yet…

There has been many time where i would be thinking, have i made the right decision to do what i did??  It feels that it would be so difficult for such things to take place… But i know that one day, i have to let it pass… I don’t have the forsight for such things… I’m standing here, in no man’s land to wonder all the time… It feels so hard to leave when the intentions is to stay… But with matters of the heart, i have yet to understand… I only know that it is for the better.. The better of moving on "and not to look back on the past"…

I hope that it would not bring any awkward feelings when our path cross again… I hate to say goodbye… But a new phase of journey will serve us for the better…

The phase whereby we will smile on our present days and take every step of it with a new challenge… Smile and chat heartily with everytime when we are to sit over a cup of coffee… It would be a wonderful beginning again… I pray everyday that everything will go smoothly and enjoy each and every moment of our day… And your day…

i chance upon a phrase for a wonderful start of our days to come…

"Don’t ever frown,Cause you will never know who is falling in love with your smile."

Well, that’s about all i guez… Probably now i would smile for the 30th september 2006 quiz coming up… All the best and good luck…

18/09/06 - 2059hrs

I had my mind busy for the past week at least… Had three quizzes in a row.. last thurs, fri and today… I’m glad it went ok though… the qns are relatively straight forward for the topics tested… well, concurrently… should receive the results on thurs and fri respectively… No doubt it has been two years that i last had test and quizzes to do.. with the earlier ones giving me some test drive i so call it.. Get the hang of being put to sit there for an hr or two preparing in the coming NOV exams…

Only that i hope that things could be better… i dont know how to put it… maybe bcos i’m not sure where i really went awkwardly erratic..  why must it happen now?? knowing that things grew to be happy… i have only wished for that person to be happy always… Not for things to be like this… probably wasn’t listening for some impt things that was said… only to have after get to knock some sense into myself, i should have understand better…

it’s like now pondering upon it day by day… Things will be different soon… in a month at least.. "seperti Hajat yang tak kesampaian, untuk memberitahu tentang apa yang aku mahu katakan bila ketemu, seperti… kata tahniah dan ucapan ku.."

ermm… i guez there’s reasons for this… yet to find out why.. maybe.. maybe i will….